Laugh.  Laugh in your own time.  Not for anyone else.  Laugh at what you find funny, and not to fit in with everything around you.  Laugh because you love to laugh. Laugh because the pain in your abdomen feels good.  Truely laugh.

This my site. My place.  This is where I try to vent the messed up feelings and emotions wich have consumed my body.  This site may be very cynical and offending at times. Life is just that fucked.  And I, unlike many, am ready to realize it.  I'm not a dark, gothic, anti life, sterotypical, depresso freak.  I choose life.  With that, I choose every aspect and don't fuck around with anything.  I let it happen and take advatage of every situation, good and bad.  Saddness, fear, hate, guilt, pain are all just as powerful feelings at joy, happiness and love.  I beliieve you can't truely understand the extent of one without the other.  Choose life.  Choose to keep your eyes open. And most importantly be fucking true to your soul.  You're the only one you have. Not many realize this, but yes you are the only one.

Don't live without Music

For so long I didn't understand the true power of music. I'm not talking pop shit, Im talking real music.  If you're scared of what you don't know.. just dive in.  Take a risk.  It's worth it.  I lived 17 years listening to the Casey's Top 40.  I'm kind of lucky tho, because right now, when i really need it, music is there for me.  It's like it just showed up like a wounded dog waiting for me to take it under my wing.  Now I've found a best friend in that damn dog.  I can't live without it.  And it can't leave, it can't escape.  That's the best part of life.. and the worst part... you can't escape what you know.

Sun, sky, rain, snow, cold, clouds..

I love all that shit. The forces of nature are amazing. Hard rainfall may just be my favorite weather forcast. For some reason my body is overwhelmed with an undefined feeling when I find myself below a radiant red sky.  I've been trying to figure this one out.  Maybe it's because it makes me feel like a part of a huge universe, makes me realize how small my life is in comparison to the rest of the world.  Maybe it makes me feel loved, warm.  Fuck, I dunno, maybe I just like the color red.

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